Snapping
Saturday, September 22nd, 2007It has been a while since my last post, but I’ve finally found a few minutes to concentrate.
Well tonight I think I became the most unpleasant person to work with. Some people test my patience to its limit, but today I treated someone very unreasonably. I am not happy with the way I had reacted towards someone. They way they responded was also not expected.
When I look at my own behavior, or even look for the reason triggering it off, I cannot see anything that compelled me to snap so hard at this person, considering it is not in my nature to do so. I can’t even blame any drug addiction withdrawal as a reason for such strange behavior. But in reality, I wouldn’t want to be a drug addict anyway. Maybe I am placing myself under too much stress? Who knows.
My holiday to Tocumwal was short, but I enjoyed every moment, especially as my folks came up for the week also. I also really appreciated spending a whole week with them too, but I feel my body and mind needs more time to chill.
At this stage, I can see my life being fast and short, so I definitely need to focus on looking after my health and general well being. It may sound selfish, but I won’t live long enough if I don’t start taking action now. I think reality has hit me pretty hard, but I know I can do it, even though it will take much self discipline.
My excess body mass is affecting my ability to aviate. So I have a new philosophy to live by: Loose Weight to Aviate!