Challenge yourself?
Monday, July 30th, 2007Well I think I’ve read millions of blogs where people try to make themselves accountable by writing something, and telling the world they’re going to stick to it.
I am probably guilty of such a crime myself. In fact I would probably have several admissions of guilt somewhere in my archives.
But today has been essence a challenge to my own conscience.
There are certain aspects in my life that need changing, and my perseverance is what is keeping me going forward. I am starting to see this change pay positive dividends too, however I wouldn’t say I am fully focused on achieving my goals, although my desire is to.
This is the challenge in itself. You cannot do everything! If you try to, you only find yourself more miserable, unless you can find an inventive way of ultra fast transport, and you obtain superhuman abilities to never sleep. Now being like that would be awesome. I’ve tested this idea in principle, but in practice, it is bound to fail. I hope that getting my unrestricted pilot’s license will reduce my over all travel times, as I tend to know a lot of people from all over the place. Being a mad aviator, I don’t need excuses not to fly.
I also hate it when I allow myself to be double booked for two glorious occasions. It doesn’t happen often, but it has happened several previous occasions. On one side, its cool to catch up with some people, but on the other side, you feel as though you’ve let down your family and friends by not seeing them. You can try the alternative, and that it is to visit both parties/gatherings, etc… but that too has its drawbacks. What is worse however is that my own Mum and Dad don’t even tell me of my forthcoming family events such as my nephew’s birthday party. Who is to blame? Well it is easiest to blame me. I should know for sure when their birthdays are coming up. However often I feel I’ve got only precious moments to spare. This feeling does not make sense?
Well today socially was totally free. But after two weeks of absolute busy-ness, I had to do the essentials like two weeks of clothes washing and a little house cleaning. As my washing machine takes between 2 to 3 hours to wash clothes, I usually go to the cinema and watch a movie when washing clothes. Today i saw the Simpsons Movie, and I would give it the thumbs up, but it wasn’t astoundingly brilliant.
Last weekend (7 days ago) I worked at the Church all Saturday afternoon and well into the evening, I then turned up to a birthday celebration (but was quite late), and made it back hone by 2am. At 9.30am, I crawled out of bed, went down to St Kilda, and helped out with setting up an aviation project. I also had brunch with John, before heading out to Seddon in the afternoon, for Esther’s 30th Birthday celebration. It was a fantastic weekend, and I also had a great time, but I didn’t get to see my family.
Back in the evil Telstra days, I worked on rotating rosters, working days/evenings, and I worked more weekends than I got off. For four years, this crazy lifestyle carried on, until I went to a fixed evening shift, and then I chose to spend a year on the graveyard shift. As you can imagine, this killed your social life. But it also made me loose focus on the most important things in life.
I just have to remember that my circumstances are now different, and I have a greater choice in how I can make my decisions.
I know I need to spend more time with the people that I love. But I also wish that some of them would visit me too. Especially on those washing days.
Just over 12 months ago, I got my own place. Adapting to a one person house environment has really shown me more about myself. I think I could make quality hermit material if I put my mind to it, but I don’t think that should be my aim in life.
I do not see any easy solution to it all, but I am thankful that there are people that still love me, even though I haven’t seen them in a while.
But to ask a rhetoric question, have I changed too much, or is this world going crazy?
